Have you ever missed some one or some thing so much you though you would just be swallowed but emptiness? And no one seemed to really understand why or how you feel that way?

That's how I feel at this moment... They say that this sort of thing is different for every one. For me it just hits me like a sledge hammer to the face sometimes, and sometimes it's for things I didn't even know would make that happen. I just wish I could have him back.... I wasn't ready to say goodbye.. And now it looks like some one else is going to be taken from me.

I'm sorry for my rambling. I'm sure it doesn't make much sense to whoever might be reading. But it feels good to vent how I feel, ya know?